For someone out there, someone I don't know, someone sranger, "Hey ! I just want you to know that, I am smiling not because I am happy. It's because I am trying to be strong of what I've been through, all these problems though. I hope you can understand. So you can't always messing me up again."
I am done !
I don't wanna trust anybody. No more !
I don't know, I said that whether I will do that, or I am just trying to do it, or I am reminding myself that I have to be careful of people I know or don't. I can't just let myself to trust somebody easily, I need to stop really.
Don't think I am strong enough to do this cause infact, I don't, I really do think that I can't.
I've make a decision though, that hell yea, I don't have many choices, I will through this even I can't cause this is the only choice, there is no way out. I can't runaway.
I think we're done here.
Ouw, and once again
I've sicked enough, tired enough of pretending to be somebody else! Of trying to be somebody else !
Yea, I really revealed myself that I am a nice one, but I am a boring one, I can't always be smiling all the time. I need to cry too don't I ? It's not worth it though, it's time to figuring out what kind of I am, cause I need to know what I am before it's too late. I need to be someone that exists in this universe.
And really, I don't love myself, I hate myself. But with this, I can motivate myself, don't worry though.
I don't like to be used by someone in particular. I am sick enough already. I am done !
TIME TO BE SOMEONE LIKE ME ! SOMEONE IN ME ! SOMEONE THAT MYSELF!
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